sometimes i wonder...how a friend so close to u can ignore u when u were with her for at least 1.5 hours...
are u acting? or u can really ignore me....
sometimes i just wan to koe r u doing well?sometimes i just wanna see yr smile.... both of them are gone. u no longer share views with me...i can no longer see yr smile.... you are not the old you.....the only person i koe last time used to smile every time....full of jokes and smiles...no the new you where u pretend not to listen to wat i say...
why avoid me?u koe it hurts when i see the old you with other pple but when i am around u became the new you.....cant i even ask u how are you doing?
why does it come to the point where i have to think twice,not just twice but thrice wheter to chat with you on MSN....we are just friends....not enemies...why do i think this way?maybe i am afraid i might piss you off with my bullshit....maybe i am afraid u might scold me for asking too much....but really this is my first time asking u stuffs....it just happened....and it hurts
honestly i regretted wat i did last time....really....i did all those coz i care too much for u....i still cant believe i can treat u like dat last time....
i hate it when i think too much....i hate everything tat is in me.......i hate my face...i hate my attitude....i hate my life..
and i i hate myself loving you
i took off for today.....i wan to drown myself with alcohol....its then i forget all unhappy things...
